Ponderize - Week 13

I came upon a translation of Psalms 73:28. I am not sure which version of the Bible it is from, but I liked what it said. "Being near to God is my happiness." Isn't that really where joy comes from, having Christ at the center of our lives?

So this week I chose the King James Version of the verse for my scripture. I like how it reminds me that being near to God is my responsibility, because it is I who must draw near to Him.  (See Doctrine and Covenants 88:63)

The Giving of Gifts

At the LDS First Presidency Christmas Devotional earlier this month, President Uchtdorf shared a message about "The Generous one."

"As adults, if we are lucky, every now and again we can briefly catch a glimpse of what it feels like to be a child once more."

"The thought that someone we love is doing something special for us, and our excitement about the special thing we are planning to do for them warms our hearts and fills us with love and anticipation."

I loved these statements early in his talk for a few reasons.

First, anyone who knows me, knows I get very, very excited about Christmas. I love picking out simple presents for my kids, husband and extended family. I start shopping early and I wrap almost as soon as things arrive. I love the lights and music of the Christmas season. I love to sit on the couch int he dark, listening to carols and just looking at my tree lights. I get so excited to give the gifts I planned, and sometimes I can't keep my own secret! I think I am blessed, as President Uchtdorf said, to feel childlike once more.

Second, I love what he said about giving and receiving gifts. We are so blessed. When it comes to temporal things we have SO MUCH. There are so many in the world who have nothing, and sometimes I even feel a bit guilty buying a gift for my kids, knowing that the item is far from a "need" (though we do try to keep in mind things that are useful as we are selecting gifts for our kids).

President Uchtdorf's comments reminded me that the joy of giving comes because of the love we feel for those around us. And that this love has its roots in Christlike love, in charity. And when gift-giving is motivated by this kind of love, it helps us, in a tiny way, to be like our Savior.

I also learned this Christmas season about how receiving a gift can help us feel our Savior's

love. A few weeks ago Brian told me that he was working on a Christmas surprise for me. He had started over a month before, working on it late every night while I was in Florida. Then he took his lunch breaks every day to keep working. He didn't even want to tell me about it because he always wants so much to surprise me. But he feared it wouldn't be done, so he told me that he was working on something so that he could bring it home and work on it. Night after night he headed downstairs and worked for hours, staying up late to get just a bit more done before bed. He spent the first days of his Christmas vacation finishing it. Tears came to my eyes this morning as I opened the finished product. It was amazing and beautiful. But in that moment of opening it I didn't just see the gift on my lap, but I saw the hours and hours of time put into this gift.

I felt such indescribable love each time I saw Brian head downstairs to work on the gift because I knew that he was doing it for me. I felt an overwhelming amount of love as I sat looking at this special gift.

And I thought of how this experience has helped me to better understand the love the Savior has for me. How much he must love me to being willing to come to earth, to suffer for MY sins, MY pains, MY weaknesses and MY sorrows. How grateful I am for Him, because now I can overcome all of these things. Because of Him, I can become like Him.

December 25 - Merry Christmas!

Isaiah 9:6

For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.

December 24

Matthew 2:11

And when they had opened their treasures, they presented unto him gifts; gold, and frankincense, and myrrh.

Ponderize - Week 12

I love this scripture. I thought it very appropriate for this Christmas week, my favorite week of the whole year. I am grateful that it reminds me of all that this little Boy, born in Bethlehem would grow up to be. 

Megan found an advent activity in this month's Friend magazine. One day we read about the journey to Bethlehem. I learned that Bethlehem means "house of bread". What a fitting name for a town where the Baby who would be the "Bread of Life" would come into the world. 

December 23

Matthew 2:1

There came wise men from the east to Jerusalem.

December 22

Luke 2:15

The shepherds said one to another, let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass.

December 21

Luke 2:16

And they came with haste, and found Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.

December 20

Luke 2:19

But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.

December 19

Luke 2:7

She brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes.

December 18

Matthew 2:9-10

And, lo, the star, which they saw in the east, went before them.

December 17

Luke 2:13-14

And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

 Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

December 16

Luke 2:10

And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

December 15

10 days! We are all very excited here at our house! We love remembering a bit of the Christmas story each day!

Luke 2:9

And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

Ponderize - Week 11

I don't know if I have been the best at the memorizing part of this whole process, but I have loved watching for and thinking about verses to use each week. I love this one because it reminds me of the blessings that can come when we are valiant. 

December 14

Luke 2:8

And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.

December 13

Matthew 2:2

We have seen his star in the east, and are come to worship him.

December 12

Luke 2:6

And so it was, that, while they were there, the days were accomplished that she should be delivered.

December 11

Luke 2:7

There was no room for them in the inn.

December 10

We love this countdown to Christmas. It is so fun to read a small piece of the Christmas story every day! It adds t our joy and excitement this Christmas season.

Today is there is a little extra Christmas excitement as Grandma and Grandpa arrive from Maine. It will be a wonderful weekend.

Luke 2:4-5

And Joseph also went up from Galilee...unto the city of David, which is called Bethlehem…to be taxed with Mary his espoused wife, being great with child.

December 9

Luke 2:3

And all went to be taxed, every one into his own city.

Ponderize - Week 10

I like this scripture a lot. For me it is a formula for becoming like the Savior and for doing my part in qualifying for eternal life. It also reminds me that I can't qualify on my own, that I must rely on my Savior and his Atonement. 

December 8

Luke 2:1

There went out a decree from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be taxed.

December 7

Luke 1:41-42

When Elisabeth heard the salutation of Mary, the babe leaped in her womb.

December 6

Matthew 1:20-21

But while he thought on these things, behold, the angel of the Lord appeared unto him in a dream.

December 5

Luke 1:32

He shall be great, and shall be called the Son of the Highest: and the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David.

December 4

Luke 1:31-33

And, behold, thou shalt conceive in thy womb, and bring forth a son, and shalt call his name JESUS.

December 3

I have always admired Mary, and her role as Christ's mother. What an amazing woman she must be!Liz and I were talking about Mary the other day, and Liz said, "I hope that I get to talk to Mary someday. I would ask her what she knew about what Jesus would do in his life."

Luke 1:26-30

And the angel said unto her, Fear not, Mary: for thou hast found favour with God.

December 2

Luke 1:26-27

The angel Gabriel was sent from God unto a city of Galilee, named Nazareth, to a virgin espoused to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David; and the virgin’s name was Mary.

December is here - Here is my advent calendar

This last weekend we took the chance to decorate our home. We put up our tree, hung ornaments, hung stockings, and set out our holiday books with my Holly doll. Since then I have wrapped some gifts and put them under the tree, the kids have pulled names for the sibling gift exchange, bought and wrapped their gifts. Needless to say, our house is brimming with excitement! 

But we are doing lots to help us remember that all we do at Christmas time is to help us remember Jesus Christ and feel His love. 

Matthew 1:18

Now the birth of Jesus Christ was on this wise

Ponderize - Week 9

This verse has been on my mind a lot over the last few weeks. (It was actually the inspiration for my Christmas card too!) What a great reminder that all we do should turn us to Christ. I think about all of the fun of this holiday season (I get just as excited as my kids, maybe even more.) Sometimes I have felt bad because my excitement doesn't always seem centered on the Savior. But I have been reminded that these fun things that we do as a family can increase our unity and love, and can help us feel the Spirit. All good things come from Christ!

Grateful

I took this chance to write a list of 30 things I am thankful for. This is certainly not comprehensive, but it was wonderful to take some time to think about the blessings that fill my life.

1. Brian - What would I do without his love and support?

2. My kids - They are each unique and special blessings from heaven

3. My parents - They have given me so much and taught me so much. They gave me the most wonderful start in life, and still bless me every day, even from 2500 miles away.

4. My grandparents - It has been a blessing to have my grandparents be such a huge part of my life, and for them to be part of my children's lives has been an incredible experience as well.

5. The gospel of Jesus Christ and the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints - The gospel helps me learn what I need to do to become like my Savior, it helps me understand the purpose of this life, and there is life beyond, and the church makes ordinances and covenants available to me to help me stay on the right path.

6. My home - I am grateful for the shelter, comfort and protection my home provides. And I am grateful to have a place to live that just feels wonderful.

7. Food - We are blessed with plenty. We are blessed to be able to get food whenever we need it, and even when we want it.

8. Clothing - Once again, we are blessed with what we need and beyond. (We are also blessed with ways to clean our clothes very easily!)

9. My vision challenges - As hard as it is sometimes to not be able to see like others do, my vision challenges have made me who I am. It has helped me learn reliance on the Lord. I have been blessed by the service of others, and I have been given opportunities that I wouldn't otherwise have received.

10. Music - Good music can lift my mood and increase my energy, it can help me feel peace and calm. It helps me remember experiences and feelings.

11. The scriptures - I love the Bible, The Book of Mormon, The Doctrine and Covenants, and the Pearl of Great Price. I love the examples of amazing people. I love the spirit I feel as I read. I love that I can find answers to my questions there.

12. Education - I am so grateful for parents, teachers and mentors and all of their efforts to teach me. I really loved school. I especially loved math. I am grateful for the opportunity I had for a college education in a wonderful place!I am grateful for y children's amazing teachers and for the things they are learning too.

13. Brian's employment - He has been blessed with great opportunities. He has been led to jobs and positions that have helped him grow. And we are blessed that I am financially able to stay home with our kids. I love that he works at BYU. It is so wonderful to still have an association with this great university.

14. Callings - In my church, callings are a way for individuals to serve with the ward (congregation). I have served as teacher, music leader, activity day leader (with the 8-11 year old girls), as well as in Presidencies of the Primary (the organization for children up to age 11), the Young Women (helping with the girls ages 12-18), and The Relief Society (the women's organization). Each calling I have received has allowed me to grow. I have met wonderful people, and have learned from those that I served with.

15. Friends - I am grateful for friends because of the way they uplift and strengthen me. Whether they live near or far, are close to my age or not, my life has been touched by so many throughout my life.

16. Photographs - I don't only use pictures to capture what happened, but pictures also help me to remember the feelings of wonderful times (and even harder times too). Pictures help me feel gratitude for the things that have happened in my life because they help things feel more real, even after lots of time has passed.

17. Flowers - They come in such beautiful colors, shapes and sizes. They smell so good. I can't help but be happy when I see beautiful flowers.

18. Priesthood Power and Authority - God's power has been restored to the earth. He has called men to be holder's of His Priesthood authority. Because of this I can be blessed in times of sickness, or when I need comfort and direction. I have made covenants, and I can feel strength as I strive to keep my covenants.

19. The Sabbath - I am grateful for the gift of the Sabbath day. I am thankful for the chance to rest from worldly cares, and to focus on the Lord. Oh, how we need a day that is free of the world.

20. Good Books - There is nothing like curling up with a great book on a cold day.

21.Technology -I love things like facebook and blogger because it helps me stay connected to family and friends. I love iPads and kindles because they help make reading and other things so enjoyable because they help overcome some of the challenges of my vision.

22. Airplanes - Airplanes make it possible for me to see extended family a lot more than you might expect, considering how far away they live.

23. Our van - Our trusty van has helped us do a lot. From weekly shopping trips to family vacations, our van helps us to get things done, and to have fun as a family.

24. Public transportation - It is sometimes hard to not be able to drive, and I am grateful for people who help me with rides, but I am grateful for public transportation and that it gives me some independence.

25. The ocean - Oh how I love to sit on the beach or on rocks near the water and just listen to the waves. Peace, power and majesty are all rolled into one.

26. The mountains, and that they are close by - We can literally drive fifteen minutes and feel like we are hours away from the city. I love that.

27. The Temple - Because of the temple I have been sealed to my husband and we can be together for eternity. We are also forever connected to our parents. And I can feel close to God today by being in the temple.

28. A living Prophet - God speaks to us today through a living prophet. He gives us counsel that we need to face the challenges of today. I know that I can always be safe by following the counsel of the prophet.

29. treats - sometimes I just need a little something sweet to eat. Sometimes I love ice cream, sometimes I love a bit of chocolate, and sometimes I want a spice drop or gummi bear. A little treat now and then is wonderful!

30. The Atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ - Because of what he has done I can be forgiven of sin, I can overcome mistakes and weakness, I can be strengthened in challenges and I can live again after I die.

Ponderize - Week 8

I started the Book of Mormon again this week. This verse from the very first chapter is one of MEg's favorites and I love the simplicity of it. When we read, we will always invite the spirit to be with us.

Ponderize - Week 7

Today I have been thinking a lot about peace. With my grandma's passing (and all that goes with losing a loved one) and with the terror that occurred in Paris this week, I have thought about how we all need peace. Maybe we have concerns about employment or illness, or we are worried about challenges our loved ones are facing. Maybe we are fearful because of things happening in the world around us. But no matter the cause of our distress, there is only one source for true peace.  I have thought about the scripture a lot, just today. I have been reminded that peace may not come in the way we expect, but when we turn to our Savior and cast our burdens on him, peace will come.

Ponderize - Week 6

I was out of town Sunday, but had chosen this scripture and created the image before I left, so I would be able to see it while I was gone. I love this reminder, and I have thought a lot about what it means to love God. When we love God it changes how we feel about Him, ourselves and those around us. When we love God it changes what we do.  Today I have thought about how, when we love God we take the time to talk to Him. 

Ponderize - Week 5

I was reminded of this verse last night as I read this talk by President Uchtdorf. I love the reminder of what lies ahead. It helps me feel joy, even when faced with the challenges of normal life.

Ponderize - Week 4

I am a little behind in posting my verse, but I did pick it out on Sunday night. This week I chose Isaiah 43:2. I love this verse, because it reminds me of one of my favorite hymns, How Firm a Foundation. It is a great reminder to me, that no matter what is going on in life, the Lord is with me.

A Letter to my boys, who happen to love watching sports

Dear kids,
The other night your dad and I went to a football game at our university. It was a gorgeous fall evening; not too hot, not too cold, and the clouds looked really cool as the sun was setting. We had nice tickets, and a good view of the field. We wore white and blue shirts with our school's logo. We were surrounded by passionate fans. One guy stood up every time there was third down when we were on defense. We stood up too. We sang the fight song every time we scored and at the end of the game (our team came from behind in the fourth quarter!). But there were some things that these passionate fans did that I do not agree with. Those things, and some other thoughts I have had about spectating have led me to write this letter to you. Here are a few things I hope you remember every time you watch sports.

First off, nothing that can happen during a game gives you permission to be rude. The refs may make a bad call. You may be disappointed in the result of that call,and that is OK. But never, NEVER "boo" the referees. You might moan a little when you see a flag fly, but once the call is made, get over it and move on. Maybe it is a bad call. Maybe, when we see the replay for 100 times from 18 different angles we know that the call was wrong, but that still doesn't make it OK for you to be rude. Referees are watching things happen at full speed, and I really feel like they are doing their best. Maybe they make a bad call in favor of the other team, but I am pretty sure that at some point the reverse will happen, and they will make a bad call in our favor (and you won't see our fans "boo"-ing that time, even though it was still a bad call.)

Being rude to the other teams' fans is also completely inappropriate. There is no need to boo them or cheer against their great plays. There is also no reason to taunt them. When we make a great play, cheer away! Holler, scream and clap for your team! But we don't need to brag. If their team makes a mistake, don't rub it in their faces. Yelling things like, "Thanks for helping us out!" is simply not kind.

Next, never be critical. I heard fans yelling things directed at the players; things like, "I can't believe you didn't catch that!" and "Why did you run that way?" and "Why didn't you make that tackle?" I kept my mouth shut, but what I really wanted to say to these fans is, "I would like to see you go out there and do better." Nobody's perfect. We all make mistakes, and sometimes things just don't seem to go your teams' way. These players are just doing their best. Support them, even when things aren't going perfectly!

And never criticize the coaches. Believe it or not, they may understand what is going on better than you do! They might just know something about the game, the players, the other team etc. that you do not know. Are the coaches perfect? No. But that doesn't give you the right to criticize. Once again, a real fan supports the coaches when things are going great, and even when things aren't.

Third, never celebrate an injury. This isn't something I witnessed at the game the other night, but I think sometimes our human nature wants us to be excited when a player, especially a really good one on the other team, gets hurt and can't play. I have watched many players on our team get hurt over the years, sometimes they have been season- or career-ending injuries. It is never good. I love when the crowd, no matter which team they are rooting for, clap as injured players are helped off of the field. This is one wonderful show of respect.

Fourth, control your emotions. Being disappointed in the outcome of a game, or in how a game is going, doesn't make it OK for you to take your frustrations out on anyone. I have been there. I have been cranky because my team didn't win. And now I better understand, that this wasn't fair. Your dad has been a great example to me. He really enjoys watching football. We have watched lots of great games together, and he is always calm, no matter how we are doing. I am not saying you can't feel disappointment or even sadness, but you get to choose your actions. Don't let your emotions control them.

Lastly, don't cheer against any team. I know this is hard to do, especially when your rival is playing someone else. The inclination is to cheer against your rival. But I suggest that you cheer for the team they are playing. This will lead your emotions to be aimed in a positive direction, and it will help you to better follow the above rules. This is one way of showing respect for teams and their fans. We don't all have to cheer for the same teams, but we can respect those who cheer for other teams, jsut as we hope they will respect us.

All of these really boil down to kindness. Treat others the way you want to be treated. Think about others and how they feel. (Maybe think about how you would feel in their shoes!) As you follow the golden rule you will never go wrong.

Sports are sure fun to watch. There is tradition, their is spirit and honor. There are great games and players of the past, and more yet to come. But in the long run, the sports aren't what matter. What matters are the lessons you learn from sports. Do you learn to work hard and do your best as you watch players you admire do the same? Do you learn to be honest and diligent? Do you learn the value of teamwork, unity and loyalty? Your character matters more than any play or game. Be the kind of fan that an opponent will remember for your kindness and respect.

Enjoy cheering on your team! Love you!
Mom

Ponderize - Week 3

This week I chose Doctrine and Covenants 58:3-4. (I promise I love the other Standard Works too, but for some reason I have felt impressed to choose scriptures from the Doctrine and Covenants the last three weeks.)

Sometimes we go through hard things. Sometimes the hard things seem "bigger" than any challenges we have recently face. Sometimes we have to watch people we love go through hard things. I am grateful for the reminder that the hard things we go through have a purpose in God's plan. All things will work together for our good (that is a scripture for another week!). 

And I also love the reminder that if we are faithful, the blessings in store for us are greater than we can even comprehend. 

Ponderize - Week 2

I laughing as my kids were having a hard time coming up with their ponderize verses this week. Then I sat down to find one for myself. What do I choose? There are so many choices? THen I remembered what I told my kids. You can't go wrong!

I asked Brian, "What should I pick?" He asked, "What do you want to ponder about this week?" The temple: I want to spend much of my week thinking about the temple.

Here's my choice. Doctrine and Covenants 109:22, from the dedication of the Kirtland temple, There are so many blessings available in the temple.

Other verses being ponderized:

Doctrine and Covenants 106:8

1 Nephi 3:16

Helaman 5:12

Moroni 5:2

Doctrine and Covenants 106:8

Ponderize - Week 1

Our whole family LOVED this talk by Devin G. Durrant at LDS General Conference this last weekend. We all have jumped right into his challenge. For this first week, Michael wanted to ponderize a verse together. He and I chose Doctrine and Covenants 13:1

Upon you my fellow servants, in the name of Messiah I confer the Priesthood of Aaron, which holds the keys of the ministering of angels, and of the gospel of repentance, and of baptism by immersion for the remission of sins; and this shall never be taken again from the earth, until the sons of Levi do offer again an offering unto the Lord in righteousness.

What's your verse?

A few other verses being ponderized at our house this week - 
1 Nephi 1:12
1 Nephi 3:16
2 Nephi 4:28

a special memory

My Grandma has been sick for about a month. She started out in the hospital, and after a few days was moved to a rehab place, where she will stay until she is well enough for her new home in an assisted living facility. She has had lots of up and downs in the rehab place. There were times we thought she was close to death, and then she has shown good improvement. I have been able to visit her frequently (a couple of times a week at least) over the last several weeks. It has been such a blessing. I have some sweet memories of this time with my grandma, and I have seen my Grandma's sweet and wonderful spirit shine through even when she physically is having a hard time.

Brian has been able to give Grandma two blessings. Both were wonderful! I will cherish those moments when heaven felt very close.

But the main memory I want to record here took place this Sunday evening. We took the kids to see Grandma. My mom was there as well. Nathan brought his violin and played "I am a Child of God" and a couple of other hymns for us, as well as a piece of "Ashokan Farewell". I watched as Grandma's foot bounced to the rhythm of the songs. We talked with Grandma for a little bit. As it was nearing time to leave Mom asked if we could sing and pray with Grandma. We sang "I Know Heavenly Father Loves Me" and then Grandma invited Brian to say our family prayer. It was a wonderful evening.

Feeling Sentimental

Sometimes I can't believe how fast time is going, and how fast the kids are growing. I feel like it was just a moment ago that they were all tiny, then I blinked and have two teenagers and two nearing the end of their time in elementary school.

I am scared to blink again because I know that it isn't long before they will be leaving home, going on missions, getting married, having kids . . . and I can't think about this too long or I freak out a bit. 

Don't get me wrong. I love that my kids are growing up! They are independent, confident kids. They are eager to learn, they have so many talents. They are kind and they strive really hard to do what is right and make good choices. They love each other and enjoy being with their siblings. I count my blessings every day. I feel so lucky that Heavenly Father saw fit to send this little crew to our home and family.

But sometimes I let myself indulge in a little sentimentality. Last May I made this video to help me do just that. It has pictures of my kids at similar stages in the first five years of life (newborn, blessing, infant, 3 month portraits, annual portraits and a picture from during each year of their life) as well as some of my favorite shots of the four of them together. 

Truthfully, I had forgotten I made this video, but found it this week as I was in another moment of remembering the past in order to help me more fully appreciate the present. 

They hushed their fears

We used this talk by Elder Bednar in April 2015 for our Relief Society lesson a few weeks ago, and I was able to make a real interesting connection that I never made before.

Elder Bednar began his talk by telling a story about when he was young and broke a window and the fear he felt. Our instructor asked us if there was ever a time that we felt fear. Immediately a day came to mind. We had received some scary news. The entire day I was completely overwhelmed by worry and fear. I cried a lot. In my mind I went through countless "what if" scenarios, each one getting progressively scarier.

As we continued to talk about the talk, I thought more about that day, and the days that came shortly after. How was I able to overcome the fears I felt so acutely that day?

I remembered Family Home Evening that very night. We talked about the story of Manna from heaven. I asked the kids why, did they think, that the Israelites gathered too much manna. They, as young children, thought that they wanted to avoid having to work the next day. As we talked another possibility came to my mind. Maybe they were scared it wouldn't be there the next day. As I shared this thought with the kids I felt the Spirit say, "see! The Lord has taken care of you before, and he will again."

Another thing I remember distinctly about that night is that I felt a strong desire to be in the temple. All of the kids had gone back to school, and were in school all day, so I decided to have Brian drop me off at the Provo temple on his way to work (and I would take the bus home). I didn't receive any earth-shattering answers that day, but I felt the peace of being in the Lord's house, which was what I so desperately needed.

In the weeks that followed, I spent a lot of time in prayer. I encouraged Brian to ask for a Priesthood blessing, and our dear friend (our Bishop) came and gave him a wonderful blessing. I feel like the Lord was talking as much to me as to him that day.

I also realized the impact of others' prayers on our behalf. Our former Bishop prayer for Brian publicly one Sunday (without mentioning the specific trial). My heart was so touched, and I truly felt the strength that came from his prayer and others that I know were being offered for us.

That was a lot that went on in my brain during just a few minutes of the lesson, but this is where I made the connection.

Elder Bednar teaches us to "Look to Christ . .  .Build on a foundation of faith in Christ . . . [and] Press Forward with Faith in Christ.]

I realized that the Lord was able to help me feel peace and overcome my fears because I was doing the things that would help me look to Christ and build my foundation on Him. I was putting myself in the places and situations that helped me feel close to Him and that helped me remember the promises he has made to me. 

Now, I know that this epiphany is really nothing new. But there was something powerful for me during that class, to be able to relate our topic to something so concrete in my life.

Trust and confidence in Christ and a ready reliance on His merits, mercy, and grace lead to hope, through His Atonement, in the Resurrection and eternal life (see Moroni 7:41).

Fun stuff

Towards the end of our trip to Maine, Megan told this to her Grandma Call. Speaking of her cousin, "Me and Maddie have developed a fondness for each other." She and Maddie were indeed good friends during our trip.

Michael came down the stairs with his homework sheet, and with a sad voice said, "Math is really hard today." When I asked what it was, his face broke into a grin, and his eyes widened and he said (his voice oozing with joy), "Prime factorization!" Later as he worked he said, "too bad we can't use exponents. It would make it so much easier."

The other day Liz was telling about memorizing some of the scripture mastery verses for seminary. Joking, Nathan said, "1 Nephi 2:15 should be a scripture master." (He likes tat it is so short. "And my father dwelt in a tent.") I said something like, "It is short, but it must be important because Nephi included it."

      Liz then said, "I always thought it was interesting that Lehi could live in a tent, and it was probably really small, and he had some really spiritual experiences there."
      Nathan followed with, "I thought about it a different way. I always thought it was to show how much Lehi was willing to give up. He left a big house and riches and was willing to live in a tent in the wilderness."
     I hate to admit how old I was before I thought about this verse enough to learn these same lessons.

"WE, THE FIRST PRESIDENCY and the Council of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, solemnly proclaim that marriage between a man and a woman is ordained of God and that the family is central to the Creator’s plan for the eternal destiny of His children. . . . 

WE DECLARE the means by which mortal life is created to be divinely appointed. We affirm the sanctity of life and of its importance in God’s eternal plan.to the Creator’s plan for the eternal destiny of His children. . . . 

THE FAMILY is ordained of God. Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan. Children are entitled to birth within the bonds of matrimony, and to be reared by a father and a mother who honor marital vows with complete fidelity. . . . 

By divine design, fathers are to preside over their families in love and righteousness and are responsible to provide the necessities of life and protection for their families. Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their children. In these sacred responsibilities, fathers and mothers are obligated to help one another as equal partners." (The Family: A Proclamation to the World)

Here are a few excerpts from The Family: A Proclamation to the World. This inspired document was read by President Gordon B. Hinckley at the General Relief Society Meeting in September 1995, nearly 20 years ago! And I think it is easy to see that this document full of true principles, stated with boldness and clarity, is vital. Perhaps we need it more now than ever before.

Our family has been working for years to memorize the entire Proclamation. Over the last few weeks, since the Supreme Court decision, I have had the words of the proclamation floating through my head, giving me strength, and reminding me what is true. It helps me to remember that we can build strong families even when the world is in turmoil.

After the Supreme Court decision we sat down and had a family council. We explained to the kids what had happened. We talked about how God's law is firm, no matter what man may say. We talked about the confusion that surrounds us, but how we can know truth. We reminded our kids that God's law states that marriage is between a man and woman. We asked them how we know this, and they all pointed to the wall, where a copy of the Proclamation hangs.

A few days later we listened to the last verse of Follow the Prophet.

Now we have a world where people are confused.
If you don't believe it, go and watch the news.
We can get direction all along our way,
If we heed the prophets-follow what they say.

Afterwards Megan said, "Our world is confused. They think it is OK for two men to get married or two women. The prophet teaches us what is right." I was grateful that she knows where to turn when things are confusing.

Another part of our conversation with our kids was that we need to be kind and respectful to others, no matter there choices or opinions. We can, in fact, be firm in our standards and still reach out with love, kindness and concern for those around us. I am so grateful for the example of the Savior. He was also firm and never condoned sin, yet he always showed love, care and compassion for the individual. It is possible.

I am grateful that we have truth from the Lord to anchor us in this world of storm and turmoil. I am grateful for the hope that I receive, that it is possible to raise children who will be firm in the faith.

My heart is full

This morning I took a bath. While I was relaxing in the warm water for a bit I heard my teenagers (the ones from the last post). They were working together to bake banana bread. They had Piano Guys music playing and they were chatting and laughing together. I can't even express how grateful I am for these two kids. They are amazing, and even though they can bug each other at times, they really get along well. And that good relationship blesses our whole family.

About a month or so ago I was talking with my grandma and grandpa. We were talking about kids and instruments. They asked how everyone was doing on the piano and we talked about Liz's flute and Nathan's violin. Then, knowing how my grandpa loved playing the trumpet, I told him how Michael was looking forward to starting the trumpet in 7th grade (still a full year away). A little bit later he said, "I have a trumpet that I bought after high school that I would like to give you." He asked me to make sure MIChael knew that if he changed his mind, Grandpa would not be disappointed. When we brought it home and opened the case, Michael's arms went straight into the air in a gesture of victory. I wish I could describe how Mike's eyes light up whenever he is working on the trumpet.

Saturday we had a BBQ with all of the CHantry family. Don and Sue will leave this week for a 23 month mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. They are serving at the MTC in the Philippines. It was so good to be with family. We got some nice pictures, and had the chance to be silly too. We added it to our bank of wonderful memories.

Yesterday was Fathers' Day. My dad had a lot going on this weekend. I was so grateful for the chance to talk to him for a few minutes and to know that all went well for him and mom the last couple of days. I am so grateful for them both. Together they created a wonderful home for me to grow up in, and now that I am married I better understand what the example of their relationship has done for me.

Fathers' Day at our house was a simple affair. The kids made cards and wrote notes. We had dinner together. Brian was able to be at church with us after filling some other assignments. He sat with the kids at church, while I sat on the stand because I was speaking. I was so grateful to know that he was there to support me(I was more nervous than I thought I would be.) There was not any big fanfare for him, which I know he prefers, but I wish there were words sufficient to express my love and gratitude for him. He is so good. He works so hard and teaches our kids to do the same. He wants nothing more than to serve God, whether that is at home, or in church callings and assignments. His service brings a wonderful spirit into our home. He helps me to be better every day.

Oh, how important family is.

We have teenagers

Something happened on Monday with Liz and Nathan that I really wish I had on video, but I don't. I do want to try to remember it though because it was so funny.

Nathan was leaving to a week away at a scout leadership camp (Liz would be leaving the next morning your YW camp). We had read scriptures as a family, then had family prayer, and the kids were giving Brian and I their usual hugs. Nathan was also giving Megan and Michael hugs. Then he put his arms around Liz. Liz gave him a bit of a sideways glance, put her hand on his chest and straightened her arm, slowly pushing him away until he was an arm's distance away.

Nathan flashed a big smile and open his arms wide, silently asking, "Can't your brother give you a hug before he leaves for a week?" Then Liz reached out and patted him on the head, which was even funnier because he had his boots on and was a good inch taller than her.

I looked at Brian and we just laughed. Yep, we have teenagers!

Megan's note to dad

A few weeks ago Megan was so excited. She had made a neat card for Brian. The card was more of a little book with several pages. There were pockets with little pictures in them, pages with borders, pages with notes. One of hte notes said,

Dear Dad,
I love you! You are the best other than mom.
Love, Megan

We loved this note and couldn't help but laugh.

Black Top Boogie - Movin' to the Movies

Today the elementary school held their dance festival. They have been working and planning for it for months. This year they chose a movie theme: each dance went along with a genre of movies. It was an adventurous day, as the forecast said that it would rain most of the day. They actually performed twice, once in the morning and once in the afternoon.Both performances started off with a light drizzle. The morning performance ended with quite a bit of rain, but the afternoon one was much better. (I am glad I made it to both, something went wrong and I didn't get video of Mike's grade in the morning, so I was excited about the chance to record it in the afternoon.)

Megan and the third grade highlighted the Comedy. They were all minions and danced to Happy from Despicable Me. I love her bright blue sneakers. They helped me keep track of her in the sea of yellow shirts.

Mike and the fifth grade paid tribute to the sci-fi movie and danced to Men in Black. He really got into the dance. It was fun to watch him come out of his shell. He was super excited about his break dance section in the middle of the song. (Mike is in shorts with a black hat turned backwards and sneakers with bright greenish-yellow.)

It was a fun day, and even worth getting wet in the rain. What a fun way to kick off the last week of school!

Faith is like a little seed

I have been thinking a lot about faith lately, specifically about faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ. There are so many scriptural accounts of people who exercised incredible faith, faith that led to miraculous events. I see around me every day acts of faith that are just as incredible, though to the world the results might seem less remarkable than those scriptural event.

The other night, through tears, Michael asked his father for a Priesthood blessing. It was 3 AM and his ear was aching so badly he couldn't sleep. Brian gave a sweet blessing to his son, a blessing that came from our Father above, and within moments Michael was peacefully sleeping, and rested well for the rest of the night. That was a miracle! That miracle came because a boy exercised faith. 

I have watched someone go through a trial. This physical trial was accompanied by much worry because of the unknown that lay ahead. This trial came to her not long after her husband faced a physical trial of his own. This sweet woman said, "I feel like I am not handling this well." It reminded me of using this very phrase when talking to mom one time shortly before Brian had his eye surgeries (November 2013). "I am not handling this well." Today that phrase to me means, "If I had enough faith this wouldn't feel so hard."

And it occurs to me now, that this is the point. Our faith isn't meant to just be strong, it is meant to be getting stronger every day, every hour, every minute. It is OK for things to feel hard. That is when we stretch, strengthen and grow.

I remember when Brian was first diagnosed with glaucoma (August 2012). The first day was awful. I cried a lot. The unknown loomed before me and I didn't know what was in store. I was fearful, I was worried, I was anxious. When it came to my vision challenge (me being unable to drive, me needing to find rides, me needing to depend on Brian, me needing to rely on the Lord) I felt like my faith in the Lord was strong. He eased my burden, so much that most of the time it didn't feel like a burden. But when faced with the "what ifs" of Brian's diagnosis my faith was put to the test. I remember saying to my mom, "I have faith that in the end everything will work out, but what about between here and there? What will we have to go through?" Tonight I connected this thought to an Old Testament story, an Old Testament story that we used in family night the very day that Brian was diagnosed with glaucoma. 

The children of Israel were wandering in the wilderness and needed food. The Lord provided for his children by sending manna. The children of Israel were instructed to collect enough manna for one day, except for the day before the Sabbath. However, some collected more manna than was needed for one day, and when they woke up the next day the manna had worms. We asked the kids why they thought this was and they said, "Maybe they didn't want to have to work the next day." I remember getting choked up as I talked with the kids about the children of Israel, and how I felt that they lacked faith. They didn't know for sure that manna would come the next day so they wanted to store some up just in case. That night I remember thinking, "Jen, the Lord has taken care of you before, and he will again."

So many things happened to help me feel peace and comfort about the situation with Brian's eyes. Priesthood blessings were given, prayers were said and I felt calm. We even were able to joke about silly things like advertisements geared toward an older generation, and incredibly long and thick eyelashes. My faith had been strengthened. Then hiccups came. There were allergies to the eye drops (August 2013), worries that insurance wouldn't cover the necessary preservative-free ones (fall 2013), and then the need for surgery because, though the drops lowered his pressures, the pressure was still in a range of concern (November-December 2013). With each of these bumps in the road I had more days of worry and fear. But each time I was reminded of the promised blessings. I was able to turn back to the Lord and the fear went away.

I have been wondering if my faith is growing at all. And last night I wrote this ending for this post.

And so tonight I write in hopes that I can strengthen my faith. I want my faith to be strong so that not only will I know that all will be right in the end, but that also things will be alright along the way. There may be setbacks (allergies to drops, drops aren't sufficient, surgeries help, vision decreases), but the Lord knows all, and will strengthen us in the midst of our challenges.

And on days when we feel our faith is not strong enough, all we need do is turn to Him and ask. The challenge will probably not be taken away, but peace and comfort will always be available.

But as I have continued to think about faith I realize that my faith has indeed grown. A couple of weeks ago we got some news from Brian's eye doctor that wasn't great. The pressures are still down, but some scans appear to show some damage to the eye and there was a slight change in his corrected visual acuity. The difference between 20/40/ and 20/20 may not seem great, but there can be concern because once vision is lost due to glaucoma, it can't be corrected. Of course, corrected vision can vary based on the day, and different, newer machines were used for the scans this time (so it really is hard to compare them with the last scans), but the news wasn't great. But I haven't worried in the same way that I did in the past. I thought a lot about Brian throughout the day, but my thoughts did not dwell on "what is going to happen?" or "what will we do?". Rather, I asked myself, "What can I do to strengthen and support Brian?" It wasn't until I started writing this post that it occurred to me that my reaction to this hiccup was much more faith-filled than my reactions to other bumps.

What a joy to realize that my faith has grown! I have a long way to go, I know, but it has been such a tender mercy to realize that I am in fact going in the right direction.

As I have typed this post I have thought of two separate experiences, unrelated to Brian's eyes, but certainly related to faith.

The first occurred early in February. On the first of February I was released from my calling in Young Women. The change was kind of sudden, and though I started to make the mental shift to my new calling in activity days, I was still feeling sad/disappointed that I would not be attending girls' camp this summer. I LOVE GIRLS' CAMP! I have learned so much as I have attended the last three years. To be honest, my feelings of disappointment made it hard for me to feel excited for the wonderful leaders who would e attending with our young woman.I felt envious, and I didn't want to feel that way. I knelt down one night, that week after my release. I told Heavenly Father how much I love camp and that my desire was to be there. Then I basically said, "I know that if You need me at camp you can provide the way for me to be there." I left it at that. And within a day I was not feel that aching desire to go to camp. I was able to feel excitement for those attending, and was able to see the positive side in me being home that week. I felt so free!

The second experience had its roots in January. With the start of the year we started making plans for the summer. We had lots on our schedule; girls' camp, scout camp, youth conference, Timberline for Nathan, an 11-year old campout for Mike and Priesthood encampment for Nathan. And our desire was to plan a trip to Maine at a time that we could get the entire Call family together. We knew the dates of many of the listed activities right away, as January passed the other dates seemed to get settled. However, scout camp for Nathan was never quite finalized. They had a week set aside but they were planing to attend an organized camp and reservations had not been made. I worried and worried that they would have to change the dates and that things would overlap the time we were hoping to spend in Maine. Then family started getting their tickets, and we had to decide to move forward with those plans despite scout stuff not being final. We decided to move forward with the plans for Maine and tickets were purchased, but I had this nagging worry that Nathan would miss out on his opportunity for scout camp. I think it was sometime in March when I decided that I couldn't worry about it anymore, but though I tried, I wasn't very successful at putting it aside and just letting things happen. So once again, I turned to prayer. I told Heavenly Father how much I wanted things to work out for Nathan to attend camp with his troop. I told him my hopes that all would work out for our summer plans and I said something like, 'If it is what you want, please make things fall into place for Nathan."And like that, my fears were calmed, my worries dissipated. And it wasn't until late April that reservations were officially made. (I learned too, that originally when they went to make the reservations, nothing was available for their planned week. But later a leader checked back and spots had opened up. I am grateful for the Lord's hand in making this happen.)

These two experiences help me realize how wonderful it can be to truly put things in the Lord's hands. He is in control anyway, but there is something very freeing about acknowledging to Him that we understand it is His plan and that we will accept whatever comes. I am grateful for these two experiences because though neither one was about incredibly difficult or worrisome circumstances, I realized that they were important to Heavenly Father because they were important to me (and I am important to Him). I find it interesting that the examples differ in one key way. In the first experience, my desires actually changed to align with the Lord's will. It is not what I initially wanted, but I came to know what was right and best. In the second example, my desires were in line with the Lord's will, and I know that because of how He made things work out.

These two experiences have strengthened my faith.

I remember, early on in the challenge of Brian's glaucoma, I wondered, "of any health challenges that we could face, why Brian's eyes? Why Brian's eyes when they are so important to our home and family?" It took about a year, but I was able to learn the answer. The Lord didn't just want a trial that would strengthen our faith. He wanted a trial that would strengthen our faith THE MOST. If we turn everything over to Him, and rely on Him and seek His will, then our faith will grow and someday be perfected.

A Peek into Michael's brain

Last week Mike came home from school. I asked how his day was. He shrugged and said, "Okay." I asked why it wasn't great. He said, "we didn't have math today, and we had to watch a movie.' I couldn't help but smile.

Last night as Brian and I were heading to bed I heard noise coming from the boys' room. I peeked in to see Mike sitting up in bed with papers. I asked what he was doing and he hung his head and said, "math." (I think he thought he was in trouble.) I asked if it was homework he forgot to do. "No, I was just writing out big numbers and dividing them." Can't get mad at a kid for doing math by the dim light that comes from the hall. In order to help him know I wasn't angry I told him about the math stuff I used to think about as I was trying to fall asleep. (It also kind of reminded me of when, as a little girl I would climb in my closet and read with the door closed so I wouldn't disturb my sister.)

I don't think Mike's brain ever stops working. I can't wait to see what he does when he gets older.

Fasting for Water

For a Faith in God requirement, Megan wrote this story about a principle of the gospel. She chose the principle of fasting.

Fasting for Water

by Megan Chantry

         There was a girl named Megan who lived in Utah. That winter they didn't get very much snow. She got to play outside. It was fun not to wear a coat. In the winter she got to swing, play basketball, play baseball and other fun games.

         People got worried because there was not much water for the summer. We need water to grow plants, to wash, to drink and to take care of animals. The stake president asked everyone to fast for water. Megan chose to fast for water.

          She fasted for water and her family did too. It rained that very day. Then the next day it snowed. And the next day it rained again. It was a lot of rain. Megan learned that Heavenly Father and Jesus will listen to our fast and will give us what we need. 

She read this story for us for Family Home Evening last night. It reminded me of the Sunday night that we had fasted. It was after dinner and the kids were getting ready for bed. Megan ran downstairs and said, "Fasting for water really did help!" What a wonderful lesson to learn.

This is a picture taken the day after our fast. Every snowflake and every raindrop, whether in the mountains or valleys was an answer to fasting and prayer. 

Gratitude for Family

December was a really special month for us. With the holidays and related visits we always have the chance to see lots of family, but this year was particularly exciting because within a two week period the kids were able to see all four of their grandparents, and all of their great grandparents.

Grandma and Grandpa Call were here in mid-December for a fun visit. We love spending time with them and are grateful that despite the distance between our homes we are so blessed to see them frequently.

We have been very lucky to live near great grandma and grandpa Call from the time we were married. The kids have grown up visiting them often and getting to know them well. It is truly remarkable that the kids have not only met so many of their great grandparents, but that they have a chance to really know them. 

Great Grandma Houghton joined us for Christmas Eve dinner and a little program afterwards. We have lots of memories of Grandma Houghton too because we have also lived near her since we were married. 

Despite the fact that Great Grandpa Chantry lives in Ogden, it has been a while since we have seen him, longer than we want to really admit. We were so grateful that he joined us at Grandma and Grandpa's house for Christmas celebrations. We were so happy to see him!

We see Grandpa and Grandma Chantry a lot, but we don't always take the time to get a picture. We took this one the day after Christmas while we were at their house.

The main purpose of our California trip the week after Christmas was to see Great Grandma DuVall. It has been over three years since we have seen her and we wanted to see her again. Last time we saw her on our way to a wedding, so it was only for a short time. This time we were able to see her some each day for three days in a row. 

We are so grateful for our family. We love to share and hear memories. We love the chance to remember the wonderful people who have come before us.